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Father Your Goodness and mercy I’m not worthy If you don’t answer a prayer I don’t blame you From what I have heard From the public I’m closer to return to the world But why do you still keep me? Why do you still love me? When I feel Everything I say is wrong Everything I do is incorrect I don’t know what to do Or what to say I’m afraid to plant my feet In the frigid waters Being that my enemies Might find out what I’m doing Camping around me And devouring me alive For someone always have Something to say to me That seems harsh or discouraging Thinking I’m useless And have nothing to offer Or someone always asking me A question Or trying to figure me out Like I’m trustworthy And calling me everything But your child What is it then? Do I just throw away my strong emotions? And have no feeling at all? Do I allow people to run over me even as I love them? Do I allow people to treat me? Like I shall never become a strong man posing as a miniature child? Can I not express myself? Like the others? Can I not become angry? Without sinning? Concluding I have no rights Only I can listen For I’m afraid to speak Because I’m not like Everyone else They will keep me quiet And I will do what they said Because there seems to be A conclusion That there are many things Wrong with me Yet I’m still considered to be young and intelligent? Now can I be that way When so much of me is beyond my comprehension? Fearful of speaking I need of much help That I cannot teach others I cannot help others I’m not living the life So how is that possible? Why I don’t have a clue? Maybe I’m not truly saved I’m just running around With a body of darken flesh Without action Standing still Watch others going higher While I have to sit And not talk Only to listen Doing whatever I’m told By everyone That is why I cannot speak There is no one there Who understands me? If you can find him Please send him in my direction I’m in extreme need of help O Lord my God My heart is seriously troubled My character is dying From man shots from My enemies and the like My personality is fitted For two people My spirit is deeply discouraged My body feels vulnerable To sickness, illness, and death Because my irresponsible Carnal and ignorant My soul believes I’m not saved I accepted you as my savior The Holy Spirit I possess But never been to the water For that much I’m made to become quiet I cannot only speak But I cannot even express What is inside of my inner self? Show emotions Or even raise my voice Or become angry To further the claim Of limitary restraint I can only be employed By what my wife Says I can work Not by what I want to do Because I’m bound To one industry Every time I’m in need of money I’m much better than this I have more to offer In other areas of society I have to wear what My wife displays for me Because I obvious don’t know Anything about fashion And I’m dictated By how much sleep I’m required Because my wife always Wants to talk And I sometimes wish to meditate |
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