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I am overweight. If you’re like me, you are overweight and can’t lose the weight. I have been trying now for months to lose weight. I have tried everything, eating lettuce all day, some exercise, trying to cut down on what I intake. Nothing really has worked, mostly because I love to eat food! I woke up with the conviction today that this is it. I am finally going to have to do something about my rapidly increasing weight before it gets out of control. When I was in my twenties I weighed 120, them 130, and then 140. Now I weigh 170 pounds! I am 37 years old and am 5’7” tall. My ultimate goal is to get down to 135, yeah, right! In my dreams!
To some people, losing twenty pounds doesn’t seem like a big deal. It may not be to you, but it is to me. My weight has been the subject of much of my own misery and feelings of low self esteem lately.
My fiancé Cliff told me yesterday that he almost didn’t recognize me from the back and then also told me in the afternoon that I was fat, gross and unattractive. That's a bummer. His negative reaction to my increasing weight gain is making me feel very insecure and unhappy. (He is a bit overweight himself, has a little paunch, you know) But far be it from me to criticize.
So, it’s finally time to be strong, take this whole issue into my own hands, and do it. If you’re like me, you don’t have the money for a personal trainer or a gym. Maybe you do. That's fine. Whatever it takes to get us to lose the weight, that’s what's important. If I could afford a trainer I would get one.
They say to love others you have to be able to love yourself first. And that's the first step in losing weight. You have to have the desire and willpower to follow through with your plan and have the belief and conviction in yourself that you can be beautiful and attractive and feel good about yourself. Why is it so hard to be good to ourselves? All the hype in the media tells us to be good to ourselves, but we don’t do it. We fall into the trap of our daily life.
That's the problem with society today. So much emphasis is placed on how we look. What shape our bodies are in. Which celebrity do we resemble? If you were looking at me you would see a blend of The Rose and Peg Bundy. I am 5’8” and have a lot of brown curly hair.
Let’s start together and make this our first day of something new and positive. Lets grow together spiritually and make friends with our self. Lets learn to love our self a little, so we can do this.
Goal: To lose twenty pounds. How long will it take us? Lets start now. Today.
Make your own log of the first day. Write down how you feel and what you are eating. Write down if you cheat. Write down if you did a little exercise. Write down what your goals are and what you want from life. Write down anything that helps you remember the day and helps motivate you.
The first thing I am going to do today is go to Wal-Mart and buys a jump rope. Yes, a jump rope, like the movie Rocky when he trained.
You see I don’t have the money to go to a gym now or invest in a trainer. I need one, but I have to do this by myself. I woke up today feeling shitty and having low self-esteem. These extra pounds on me are really starting to show, my clothes are tight, and I feel dumpy. I don’t want to feel this way. I want to feel hot and look good. I think we all want that. It’s hard to go this alone with no support and no one to really kick my ass and motivate me.
What I really want is my old body back from when I was twenty, but that isn’t going to happen. I am 37 years old now and really feeling it. I think to myself. Life would be so simple if I were just really skinny, like the woman I see on TV. Who knows? Who knows what their battles are.
It’s been hard looking in the mirror lately. The other day I went to buy clothes and I was really disappointed to see how the weight has accumulated on my thighs. It’s time for warfare. It’s time to fight. I am glad we can be friends and do this together. I need support and love. Maybe you do too. Lets set our realistic goal now and make today the first day of something new.
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